anyway today was a funny day. haha to me la. it was quite an unusual day. and one filled with lotsa lotsa chitchatting. firstly on my way to school i met tsun wang at the bus stop. so i had company on my way to school (: which makes it less boring, even tho tsun wang still cant rmbr my name. haha. then, for the first time in quite some time, it rained in e morning so all the umbrella-less pple cldnt get to sch. lucky eunice had an umbrella so i didnt have to open my pink one (: you rock, girl! then there wasnt any assembly. we havent not had assembly for some time man. haha lessons were pretty normal. i was lost as usual during the chem lect and nearly fell asleep during gp. whats new? anyway after school i met kaili in e canteen and we had a looonng talk. abt alot of stuff. haha we talked for one hr plus can? lol den i was going up to find caroline when i met suhui. so i waited with her for her friend to come down. haha but when i left later her friend still hadnt come down. maybe she got lost? lol. den i went to e lib to find caroline but i cldnt find her! and she wasnt answering her phone! haha but i met yuhe and junxiang. haha so they gave me some company while i looked for caroline. in e end i discovered she was watching soccer. so i went down too. anyway i wanted to watch the match. CJ vs TJ! CJ won 1-0. haha. nigel was good (: he was super fast la. looks like all the mass pe does help ;) den there was a SA vs HC match after that. didnt stay for that tho. so i went to the bus stop. haha and i met stephy at the bus stop. we chatted for awhile den 48 came! lol den i realised raymond was at the bus stop too. so i had company all the way back to my house. one hr plus leh. but i time passes alot more quickly when u have company (: haha i really must thank all e 48 pple man. they give me company every morning. esp since now i know most of them. lol. this happens when u have an unreliable bus. HAHA. anyway it was nice talking to him. havent talked to him for super super long since i think hes always late/taking cab. and he was telling me abt needles and drips and blood and i was like eew. haha and yes, ming hasnt gathered up enough guts to go donate blood yet. but no, actually it doesnt really matter to me. but its ironic. i can, but i dont wanna donate. jenny cant, but shes dying to donate. haha wanna swop bodies or sth? lol. but anyway ive never felt any strong affinity or sth for donating blood so no, it doesnt really affect me. eew this reminds me of the video we watched during phy lect the other day. the one on lasik. gosh it puts me off ever doing lasik in my life. its damn gross la. how abt our eyeballs are bouncy? eeeeww. the surgeon was like bouncing the metal thing on the eyeball la. eeeeeeeww. okay stop this gross topic man. STOP.
anyway yupp, i enjoyed doing all the things i dont normally do. like long chats, watching soccer without ponning gas, having some company. i dunno. today i realised that i've been alone for so long that its abit weird having company. i mean e permanent kind, not e superficial kinda company. yupp. maybe im too used to being alone. i dont rmbr being like this last time tho. and now i have more friends who know me better than ever before. shldnt that mean i shld feel less alone? okay maybe it doesnt work this way. haiz. but i think its good to get used to it. coz nothing is forever. and since ure gonna walk ur path alone, whats e point of getting some company only to have to say goodbye to it later. oh gosh. i think i know why i keep some pple at a distance. coz really, i dont think i can take being hurt the same way again, even tho it was nobody's fault. but really, once is enough. more than enough in fact. and im tired of going thru e whole roller coaster ride again. one min im on top of e world, e nxt min u send me crashing down to hell. u think my heart is a trampoline ars. HAHA. maybe its just better to stay at one point and not fluctuate so much. so you dont actually have to deal with the bad stuff when it comes. but den you wont get e joy too. oh well. use cost benefit analysis! lol. im kidding. like, really. haha. okay my rants are starting to not make much sense to me too. time to move on.
so its sn sports day tmr. im looking forward to it (: its whats been keeping me going this whole week even tho its been quite a shitty week and im not gonna get what i want even after going thru the shittiest of weeks. but yupp, im looking forward to the sports day. think we're gonna have fun :) and its been a long time since ive seen all you sn pple. and today suhui asked me who were our monitors in sec 4 and i cant rmbr! i only recall sinyao, liwen, and jovena. and i cant rmbr who e last person is! gosh. if any 4d pple read this and rmbr, pls refresh my memory. and no, not by clicking the refresh button on top. tag me pls.
heres a nice song ive been addicted to recently, even tho its really quite old.
Superman
-Five For Fighting
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home
I'll never see
It may sound absurd but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It's not easy to be me.
love you. always have, and always will.
a star fell from the sky;
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